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What I’ve been doing for the last 14 days…

14 Apr

I can’t believe it’s been so many days since my last post – it’s like the days simply fly by and I don’t realise where they are all going. It’s now Thursday night, and I am laid up in bed with a head cold – you know, one of those icky head-achy, sore throat, stuffy nose-type ones, which seem to come from nowhere and strike without warning, only to linger around for days without easing. But it’s the perfect excuse I need to write and post this, so no more encouragement needed!

Where life has taken me since my last post:

Have taken myself on a lovely little trip to Glasgow for shopping and bought home loads of goodies, including two pairs of shoes and a gorgeous tailored, very Mad Men-esque black dress. I have only been there a handful of times, but the city itself reminds me a lot of Sydney, and yes, the shopping is fab.

I have finally taken the plunge and both coloured and cut my hair. Getting past my fear of hairdressers and bad hair cuts once again and ending up with something I actually like has made me happier this week!

Have started to tackle the small pile of books that I have promised myself I will read this month. I am carrying a few over from last month, as time has been very limited, but I will get there!

Discovered TED! Full of inspirational talks and chock-a-block of ideas, the TED community is awesome if you are looking for something to make you think, see the world just a little bit differently, or inspire you in your own life. I have listened to a few talks already this week, choosing from a wide topic pool as beauty, politics, business, and science. My favourites have been listening to the inspirational story of Caroline Casey, a remarkable woman with a mind-blowing story who has taken a stand and made a difference despite all the odds, and that of Neil Pasricha, the creator of the totally awesome blog, 1000 Awesome Things.

Continue to write in my latest Moleskine notebook. I find that no matter how busy I am, I always find time to write in my notebook, and carry it with me absolutely everywhere – I just never know when I’m going to want to put pen to paper and either write or draw my ideas, especially when I know I’ll be anywhere near the vicinity of a cozy coffee shop. And this week has been a busy one for ideas! ( More on this one later!)

I have fallen in love with hummingbirds! I don’t know exactly how this came about, but I found a picture of a hummingbird in a magazine last week, and the image of the delicate little thing resonated with me in a very profound way. I have begun to find out as much as I can about these little birds,and have begun working on a series of illustrations of the little guys. I am still in the process of doing up my rough sketches!

Indulging in eating Pink Panther Vanilla Wafers – such a sweet, pink colour, and they taste delish too! And they have a picture of the Pink Panther on the packaging – so childish, but if there is another reason to buy these, then that would be it!

Have been busily looking for my next crafting project. And with the discovery of quilted notebook covers, such as this one that I found on the awesome blog Faerie Acres  ( there are a few others on here as well), I think I may have found the it! I am totally in love with the sweet patchwork and frills!

Work – alas, this one never changes! But I do consider myself lucky in that I may possibly work the best railway route there is – the Edinburgh to Aberdeen line in Scotland. Stunning scenery accompanies us the whole 2.5 hour journey ( and back!) as the train snakes it’s way north up the Scottish coast, and I have been keeping a look-out for seals basking in the sunlight. No luck yet, but there is always hope!

As the week progresses, I hope to blog on my progress on all the little things I have just mentioned, and hopefully this time the amount of time between posts will be considerably less!

I Am Who I Am

5 Feb

‘I’. So simple, yet so complex, one who holds so much power, the only one I can really know, deeply, but not without question, or uncertainty. This is something I have had to confront in my personal life many times, and just when I thought I had figured this out ( for the time being at least!) something happens to make me feel the need to revisit this again. The following is a gentle reminder to myself of who I really am, at this precise moment in time.

I am a woman. I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, myself. I am my past, my present, my future. I am a traveler, a dreamer, one who can sit for hours, staring out my window at the pouring rain and rushing wind, be silent, be still, but not quiet, for my soul stirs with you, soars with you, deep into the night. I am a lover of music, of art, an admirer of beauty, of nature, the simple, fantastic, delicate, the unique, a whirlwind of color, of sound, I embrace life with arms open wide. I am one who greets the morning light with a grateful heart, I am here, I am alive, I am purpose, I am joy, another new beginning in my life. I am my hopes, my plans, my dreams for a better future. I am kind-hearted, generous, affectionate, sincere. I am also moody, temperamental, impatient, and dismissive, but I am accepting of my faults as I am of my virtues. I am curious by nature, I want to know what I don’t understand, what is outside my experience. I am a lover of knowledge, of books, of ideas, I am one who can keep an open-mind. I am also destruction, a tumultuous confusion, chaos inside chaos, a raging storm, an insatiable sea, antagonistic to the very end. Stubborn. I am the one who asks, who seeks, who knocks, often afraid of what I might find, shrinking back into the shadows, be still my beating heart. Despite this, I am learning, to find my courage, to take up my warrior’s shield, to venture into the unknown, to discover my essence, let it cascade and flow free, uninhibited and pure, and like the tallest tree and the smallest seed, to find the strength to simply be. I am love. I am spirit.

This may not be what I was yesterday, this may not be what I will be tomorrow. This is who I am today.

‘The Absolute Truth is that the ‘I’ is perfect and complete, the real ‘I’ is spiritual and can therefore never be less than perfect, it can never have any lack, limitation, or disease’ – Charles Haamel

Au Revoir 2010 – Bonjour 2011!

2 Jan

Ahhhh….2010! What a year, and what an opportunity, now that we have welcomed 2011, to reflect on the year that was, and the year that is to come. For me, personally, I never expected 2010 to hold what it did. I somehow managed to accomplish what I set out to do for myself, and am now faced with the task of coming up with a list of more accomplishments to be achieved this coming year.

Setting the goal of leaving my comfort zone, and leaving my country, my family friends, job, and study to relocate to the United Kingdom , has been the singularly biggest decision of my life. I managed to plan, book, and build up the courage to leave behind everything I have ever known, and take a massive leap of faith into uncharted waters. My travels took me to Chile, New York, London, Wales and many other places in between, before ending up in the city of my heart, Edinburgh, which I am currently choosing to call home. I can honestly say they have been the best times of my life. But then the real work was still in front of me. The task of finding a job, a home, some new mates, was enormous, and incredibly daunting at first, as I battled with understanding the language ( same-same, but very different!), the way of life and local culture, and the weather. Finally finding my feet, feeling settled, and knowing that I navigated my way through my own efforts, was a feeling so satisfying, now I look back and still can’t quite believe I somehow pulled it off. All in all, through all the highs, inevitable lows, and lessons learnt,  I made it through 2010, and here I am, at the beginning of 2011, looking down at the long road ahead, wondering what this precious year will hold.

So, it is with excitement and some nervous anticipation, that I have come up with my List-To-Aim-For. Whether I get there, or whether I don’t, whether I change the goal posts, or they shift themselves to take me to a better place, the process of reaching my goals for the year will be an adventure unto itself. One I look forward to with joy,courage, and hopefully, inspired confidence.

  • Sign up for and complete Matador Network’s Matador U Travel Writing / New Media course
  • Enrol and complete Blaze Online Creative Writing Program. I have been writing now for many years, and it is my life-blood. This year it’s time to make it official, hone the craft, and share it with others.
  • Post on this blog once a day for the next 363 days!
  • Travel. Frequently. Every month if possible, and at any opportunity if the wallet says ‘yes’! Am already planning a short visit to Europe in 12 days time – destination still unknown! And am going to the beautiful city of York at the end of January.
  • Plan a 3 month trip to the United States in 2012. Still a while away, but getting organised for this now will make it easier in the future.
  • Begin work on my first novel. The idea I have held for many months is finally taking shape!
  • Expand my ever changing literary tastes to include more poetry, plays, and books that really make me think about the person I was, the person I am, the person I aspire to be.
  • Take more photographs, and work seriously on my art – I am an illustrator at heart.
  • Look for and find a day job I actually enjoy doing, while allowing me enough freedom to pursue my creative side
  • Figure out who my real friends are – separate the thorns from the roses. This is always a tough one, but one I feel is necessary in order to grow as a person. Being surrounded by positive, supportive, and caring people.
  • Get healthy and reclaim my energy levels. Being a vegetarian and following a gluten-and wheat free diet isn’t easy, but coupled with sleep, exercise, and plenty of ‘me’ time, all I am aiming for is balance and happiness within myself.

So now that I have shared my goals and aspirations for the year with you all, I am hoping this blog will be one of may main incentives to keep myself going. I hope to be able to blog my progress throughout the year, and see where the many different paths take me. And to those of you on your own inspired journeys: ” All our dreams can come true, if we have courage to pursue them ” (Walt Disney).